Currently Listening Black Holes and Revelations By Muse see related

 can i just say that as complicated as i made this summer, it was slammin. good good times. i got to play with kids all day AND get paid. i met some new people, turned 21, went on adventures, and had fun. that's what summers are for.  but now it's fall (or winter OMG) and it's time for new adventures! 

this is what currently is making me happy:      

mi madre. we went to easton for her birthday and had a girly day. and wore johnny rocket hats.

byob (4 of the 7)

good food + good friends = good fun (norte forte alaskan salmon dinner party)

gin and tonic with ryan makes me feel like a grad student:)

oh my westerville loves (@ andrew's birthday)

repeat good fun (@ schmidt's for erik's birfday)

+not pictured: my new house, my roommates, and this new boy. (ahh a new boy?!?) 

xoxo happy october!

warning: it's that time of year when i get real reflective/melancholy. bear with me please

You wake up, only to find
There was no piece of mind in your sleep
You wake up, the dreams that were there are
The memories you can't seem to keep

-Mae "where the falls begin" <--i like this song a lot right now

speaking of dreams, i took a 3 hour nap today and woke up thinking about DnD hahaha

going to the postsecret website makes me super sad.  i've always thought about sending in one of those thingamabobs. but would it really "lift" the secret from me? i'm pretty sure only prayer/jesus can help me do that. but still, it'd be neat to send one in.

i love mr. cat. we've had some quality bonding time lately and one day i woke up and he was cuddling with me and had his paw stretched across my chest. this made me realize that i don't need no man:)

on that note, i dated this boy. his name was nate. we had fun, but now it's over. by my choice. yet i miss him sometimes. the odds of us actually going through with being friends: probably 65%

ps-instead of packing (i'm moving to 123 Clinton St. in less 48 hours!) i'm updating this.

i'm doing a bad job at reading the bible and praying. i'm in a funk. a christian funk that repeats itself all the time.

i love my mom. we've had some quality conversations lately, eaten a lot of mexican food, and i very much appreciate her. i can honestly say i won't mind turning into my mother:)

a lot of talks about the future have mellowed/stressed me out all at the same time. don't judge me if i say i want a baby. i hate it. i wish i didn't. i like a baby story sometimes better than a wedding story now. i'm scared of marriage. and i think it's because i'm afraid i won't ever be head over heals for someone for the rest of my life. i find too many flaws too quickly. and it's not that i'm pessimistic in that regard--i just honestly feel like it's going to take awhile to find someone i'm 110% about.  that kinda makes me sad, i'm not going to lie. but excited too. because i know i'm not flaky when it comes to the whole love thing and that when i say it it's gonna be sweet. :) 

but seriously, a baby? let's be real jessica. 

oh, did i mention i'm starting grad school?  that freaks me out too. gah.

here's to the future! ::lifts glass::  

i need to:

-pluck my eyebrows

-tie dye everything i own

-drink more water

-focus and realize summer's not over yet

weeny03: pft. <--i miss my miss alaska 2006

xoxo

Currently Listening Underage Thinking see related

so i think it's safe to commit to one xanga entry per month. i think me and my xanga can be satsified with that.

it's been such a whirlwind summer. two weeks until i move, 5ish weeks till school starts? excuse me? what happened? but man, has this summer been fun:)

JULY:

this is my adorable family at this pizza place that was exactly like cici's

pretty much francine and i are best friends.

this is sar7ah and me being creepy jesus's (or jesui?)

then we went to HOTlanta to see alan and it was awesome. i have so many more pictures i want to post from this weekend, but this one about sums it up. and the next two.ps-the coca-cola factory had MANZANA LIFT OMG

this picture pretty much sums up fourth of july.

so i have lots more to update on but it's saying i've reached my photo limit and my eyes are telling me i've reached my awake limit (haha!)

xoxo

Currently Listening The Praise & Worship Songs of Richard Smallwood With Vision By Richard Smallwood & Vision see related

so here's my update with fotografias!

mystery gang had a reunion memorial day weekend in which we initiated a few other key awesome people.

this picture i just like a lot cause it's hilarious. this was a mystery gang stop at that one park.

this was at swood's party. i like it cause it makes scott look super emo.

francine, henry and i went to cml main branch (the best one x a million). i wanted to steal this carpeting. and henry has a mohawk which is beautiful.

then sean and i drove to kansas city, kansas to see my beautiful friend faith marry this amazing guy antonio. it was wonderfully fun and full of happiness:) and since i was in the wedding, i had to wear these ridiculous heels, but i didn't trip or anything!

then i graduated! this is the look of surprise that both me and my mom had!

then i turned 21! and went to a clippers game! but unfortunantly that's about all i did cause i had some sort of illness that made me throw up all the time. it was booty.

then i had this party where a bunch of people i love and appreciate came! this picture pretty much sums up the whole night.

this is at breakfast the next morning. good pancakes.

uh wasssssssssssssssssuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupp!

so there's a ton more i want to post, but i figure this is long enough for now.

update #2 coming soon to you!

xoxo

Currently Listening Relationship of Command By At the Drive In see related

man oh man! it's been two months almost exactly since i updated this thing. i'm probably the worst blogger i know. but i've been busy! i promise! just a quick overcap of my life since may:

-i stressed out about finals and my three very large papers but ended up ending with a 3.75 or something like that. i was pleased:) then i graduated! wahoo! honestly though, it didn't feel anything like high school graduation. at that one i wanted to cry and be extremely happy the whole time. but at this one, i was bored, i only knew one person next to me, and when i got my diploma from some random guy, i jumped up and down only so my mom could take a "classic picture". meh. i still have more school. that's my reasoning for my lack of enthusiasm.

-i got a job with columbus rec and parks (yeah, not parks and rec, cause "people come first" lame) and i work with 60+ kids at Tuttle Park literally 3 blocks away from my house, everyday 9-6. i get to swim, go on bike rides, play all sorts of games, go to the zoo/circus/awesome field trips.  i mean, the kids are all real needy and sort of a HUGE handful, but you get used to their crazy personalities and just keep on keepin on:)

-one last "momentous" thing: i turned 21! yeah, but seriously, lamest birthday EVER--and it's all my fault. i got some sort of stomach bug thing and vomited the entire week of my birthday. it was wonderful. finally on the friday after we had a party, and i just went to my first legal bar last night, but i was a little bummed on my birthday, i won't lie. we did go to a clippers game and the next night swood took me out for an awesome birthday dinner (that my body immediately rejected), so i'll sum up my birthday as fine. and now i'm 21! w00t w00t

so now i have to go to church. but i plan on posting sweet pictures in un momentito.

xoxo